Sometimes I forget that we are all innately wicked and evil. The best of us are just not as bad as the worst, but all are capable of of the ugliest things. Infact, if sin had a form, i imagine it would be the most unimaginable, horrid sight ever. A cancerous parasite that eats us alive for our whole lives, and we can't, by ourselves, make it stop. Slaves. Chained and shackled. Just spending our lives trying to hide from it and make it stop. Drugs (illegal or not) are used to push away or numb the many physical, mental, and emotional symptoms of our innate sinful nature, only making it worse while the monster inside continues to beat us and kill us.
I know that people try all kinds of different things to curb our guilt and suffering, the results of our root problem sin, but I know personally the drug side of things. Strong hallucinogenics/psychedelics were my escape from reality, of course at that time I did not understand the reality I was trying to run from. I did not understand that I am a helpless sinner, dying in sin since birth, carrying within me the guilt and shame of not only my innate sin but my own sins that came out of that cold hard heart of sin in me. The cause (sinful nature) and the results (my own personal sins). A master beast inside us whipping us into submission, and what is worse, is we <i> enjoy </i> it all. We <i> like </i> our sin. We wouldn't have it any other way. But thankfully, the One who made us in His image as "very good" before the first man, Adam, plunged the whole of humanity into slavery, has worked throughout history freeing many, and nailing the sins of the world on the Cross on which the second Adam, Jesus Christ, was crucified.
Sometimes I need to remind myself of this; that as God has changed my heart and brought me to Him through His Sons' perfect sacrifice by the Holy Spirit, and though I will battle sin for the rest of my earthly life, I hate it and will "be killing it, or it will be killing me".
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